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juni-ravenhall · 5 years ago

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my abuse & pandoria

theres a thing i havent talked about at all with juni’s story (bc i wanted to write or draw it out and not just talk about it as a meta thing) and i suddenly realised that the stuff ive thought about regarding my irl life history lately makes that part of the story even more important to me........

basically juni has a brother who’s been stuck in pandoria for his whole life (and from the beginning i decided this bc juni has always represented my hope and strength and health and happiness, but her brother represents my ‘real self’ full of distress and depression and fuckedupness and dissociation etc).

and lately i realised just how much my whole irl life has been living in ‘wonderland’, in the sense that nothing has ever been normal or followed normal logic or made sense. my parents r crazy, and sadly my 2 younger siblings (who i love) have had a lot of difficult behaviours due to our shared parental abuse but the thing is its caused them to also treat me badly in some ways, and to behave irrationally and nonsensically in many many ways, and i didnt face this until this month. i always excused the things theyve said or done that affected me bc ‘theyre just victims and they cant help it, and i love them’. then bring in 10 years of being with my husband whose abuse made me suicidal in 2017. then add on, bullying at school, shaming and other toxic behaviours from other relatives, friends and random people, etc.

as examples for what its like to live in ‘abuse wonderland’, basically read about gaslighting. secondarily, my mom is basically like a 1 person cult and me and my younger siblings were born into this cult that is her state of mind. she has a personal belief system that is really unhealthy just like everything else about her. a lot of these lists about things that victims of cults suffer from, are the same for me.

the relationship im now in with my best friend makes me cry a lot out of just shock and confusion about what its like to be in a healthy relationship with someone who actually loves you and cares about you, being treated like a person with value. it feels like being pulled out of wonderland and its really shocking and disturbing and really important. its hard to face the actual level of how badly ive been treated and how far away ive been from ‘normal life’, actual love and healthy things.

the point im getting to is, i realised just this week that junis brother being stuck in pandoria is literally what it is. ive been stuck in pandoria (wonderland) this whole time. the world around me (aka the social situation) doesnt follow normal real world logic or rules, its eaten at my energy (both physical and emotional) for my whole life because its extremely stressful and exhausting and confusing to live in these circumstances. and finally when i was 28, it reached the point where i became suicidal bc i didnt see any way out anymore, i lost all hope that i was clinging on to desperately until then, and felt completely void. ive worked hard since then until now to both ‘not kill myself’ and to rebuild my ability to feel things and have hope.

im turning 31 on june 13th (soon!!!!!) and half a year ago i was fairly sure i wouldnt live to see my next bday. already 30 seemed like it had been an impossible battle that i somehow reached by extreme struggles and perseverance but ‘this was it’. i didnt think i could do it for another year anymore. i had many ‘suicide scares’ and very extreme panic attacks in this past year, until february of this year.

since february (which is when my life changed bc i realised i was in love with my best friend and it thoroughly turned my core upside down) i havent been suicidal. but i feel basically that when it happened, suddenly someone arrived and met me in pandoria/wonderland and stayed with me and said theyre going to get me out, even if i couldnt get out yet. and its been really hard to internalise it for these past 2.5 months. but she keeps proving that she really means it and that she really is here for me (and im here for her). instead of turning on me like everyone else, i feel her love stronger and not weaker. we both have bad days but thats why i say, every WEEK it gets better. every week that passes i feel like im getting a step closer to leaving this place emotionally, and someday physically.

juni has always represented my own strength and goals about feeling safe and happy and confident and im happy shes here for me too. (before her ive had many other personas that r similar and ive also used the sibling symbolism of my 2 sides before, but i wasnt aware of WHY i was doing it, i just liked giving my persona a sibling but didnt know why)

anway thats my long post about being stuck in pandoria.

#my post #text post #long post #abuse #mental illness #depression #suicidal #trigger warning #content warning #personal

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guidingthulite · 7 years ago

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A very, very long tag

tagged by: @deira-luv

rules: answer these 92 statements and tag people (i’m not tagging though)

THE LAST:

1. Drink: Pineapple Juice

2. Phone call: My dad I think?

3. Text: My dear dear Amaury. Or @srta-double. Can’t remember

4. Song you listened to: LOVE! LOVE! LOVE TOGETHER BABY

5. Time you cried: I can’t remember? I think it was last Friay but you’d need a bit of info to understand why.

HAVE YOU:

6. Dated someone twice: Bro. Not even once, much less twice.

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: Nope, not that either.

8. Been cheated on: No relationships, no cheating UwU

9. Lost someone special: You mean to death or that we just... Lost the bond or something?

10. Been depressed: ;v;

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: Not really, no.

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

12-14: Blue, Red, Orange

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: Yes!!! And I love them!!! With my soul!!!

16. Fallen out of love: *looks out the window and that flute cover of My Heart Will Go On plays in the distance*

17. Laughed until you cried: I think?

18. Found out someone was talking about you: People do, and I know that, but I haven’t caught anyone talking about me yet.

19. Met somebody who changed you: (AH, SHUSH, YOU ARE) Definitely.

20. Found out who your friends are: Specially in this year, yeah

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: My Facebook is dead my dude. Doubt it was even alive.

GENERAL:

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: As I said before...

23. Do you have any pets: My brother is half cat! That counts, right?

24. Do you to change your name: Yes ;v;

25: What did you do for your last birthday: I think I kind of died because I got too much love and I couldn’t handle it. Also I chatted with my cousin. Have I ever talked about my cousin? She’s one of the most purest and sweetest people on Earth and we do not deserve her.

26. What time did you wake up: 7 am, and it was horrible ;v;

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: Either reading fanfic or sleeping. Maybe studying? I don’t know

28. Name something you cant wait for: MARRYING MY WIFE I don’t think there’s something in specific? I guess you’ll know when I am excited XD

29. When was the last time you saw your mom: *peeks from the door* Hi, mom

30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: I want to meet my online friends, come on, I wanna give all of you a big hug ;_;

31: What are you listening to right now: IT’S STILL LOVE TOGETHER OOOOPS

32. Have you ever talked to a person named tom: Not as far as I remember...

33. some thing that is getting on your nerves: Me and my drama that I, might I add, INNECESSARILY put onto myself.

34:most visited website: Tumblr and YouTube, I guess

35. mole/s: I have lots of those... And I have a big one... IN MY FFFAAACEEE

36: mark/s: That weird stretch thing all over my torso. My mom’s been freaking about it but meh.

37: Childhood dream: I wanted to be a singer, or an actress, or a teacher, or a reporter, or...

38: Hair color: Do you know why I paint my hair blonde when I draw myself? Because IRL my hair color is a MESS

39: long or short hair: Short is best!

40: Do u have a crush on anyone: Bro, if I told you...

41: What do you like about yourself?: I am very spontaneous. I like weirding out people I don’t like.

42. Piercings: No? Seems like a very uncomfortable thing to be honest ;v; If you want one then go for it though!

43. Blood type: A-

44. Nickname: Lulu, Lou, Blueberry, Alma, Lula... I think I’m forgetting some.

45. Relationship status: Singler than a... Uh, what rhymes with Single... Pringle?

46. Zodiac: Gemini

47. Pronouns: She/Her

48: Favorite tv shows: Emotion-Connection-Wise it’s definitely Adventure Time, but my current obsession is VLD (Jeremy Shada is an angel though)

50. (did we skip 49?) Right or left hand: you’re Right keit

51. Surgery: No?

52. Hair dyed in a different color: Mmmmaybe

53: Sport: Rollerblading, the only thing I’m decent at. And swimming.

55. Vacation: I don’t care the place, I just want to be with my friends ;-;

56: Pair of trainers: On... My Feet?

MORE GENERAL:

57. Eating: Homework Nothing at the moment

58. Drinking: Nothing

59. I’m about to: Keep doing Homework

61: Waiting for: sleep. my bed. what a bless

62: Want: The sappiest thing you can imagine. Like, imagine sappy, then turn it sappier, then more and more and that’s not even the beginning. I’m cheesy.

63. Get married: I would really, really love to.

64. Career: Translation is where I’m headed, apparently. Which now that I think of it is kinda useless. I want to move to USA. Why do I need that.

WHICH IS BETTER:

65. Hugs or kisses: I want to be showered in both you can’t make me choose

66. Lips or eyes: EYES. THEY ARE LIKE GALAXIES AND THEY’RE ALL BEAUTIFUL. I LOVE EYES

67. Shorter or taller: I don’t mind, really

68. Older or younger: Older maybe?

70. nice arms or nice stomach: arms arms arms arms

71: sensitive or loud: Sensitive? I don’t like loud soooo

72. Hook up or relationship: Relationship!!!

73. troublemaker or hesitant: Wha?

HAVE YOU EVER:

74: Kissed a stranger: No kisses means no strangers, duh

75. Lost glasses/ contact lens: I don’t wear glasses, sooo

76. Turned someone down: Yes, and it haunts me to this day (it’s part of my lore my friends)

78. Sex on the first date: No? Unless you already were into that kind of relationship and you’re just trying out dating. But I think it kind of defeats the purpose.

79. Had your heart broken: Buddy my love life is a MESS, you could write a novel about it.

80. Broken someone’s heart: Oh gog I hope not.

81. Been arrested: I don’t think so? I mean, no, not really, no

82. Cried when someone died: I can’t. Like, I am unable to cry when someone dies. I don’t know why.

83. fallen for a friend: uUUUUUUUUUUUHHHHH... Yes. Maybe. Definitely. More than once. Yeah. Affirmative. Positive. Yes again.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. yourself: Sometimes ;v;

85. Miracles: CAUSE I STILL BELIEVE IN MIRACLES I SWEAR I’VE SEEN A FEW

86. Love at first sight: Kinda, but not really. It’s... Complicated.

87. Santa Claus: I played detectives when I was 8 and found out that he didn’t exist and it was super dumb but I am proud of it

OTHER:

90. current best friend name: Alma is not my name! I wish ;-; Alma is a super cool name I COULD have had, but no, my parents decided to name me Lourdes after my mom. And I don’t like it so maybe that’s why I like nicknames so much ;v;

Anyways I can’t choose a best friend aaa ;-; But Internet Best <> Friend <> Award goes to Deira and IRL BFF Award goes to...

I don’t really have an IRL best friend, @sweetdemon933 doesn’t count, she’s my partner in crime ;-;

91. Eye color: Brown as the bitterest coffee you can find. Like, really brown

92. favorite movie: You could never guess. Really. No one expects it. Ever.

Well that was all! Gotta keep doing Homework then ;v; See ya :D Have a pleasant day and all

#about me #tags!

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briteboy · 7 years ago

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yelling @ santi, i’m evil again (what else is new), SOME REALLY REALLY OLD ASKS, one GoT spoiler at the very bottom (beware)

*angrily slaps santi* GET YOUR SELF TOGETHER YAH POOP HEAD

Lou and Fiona deserve happiness pls let it happen ty

they do ;-; it will happen, don’t worry, no one suffers forever <3 i’ve actually been planning out lou’s story and i’m excited to actualize it hehe

I just read all of Santis story. Dear god, it is amazing. I cannot begin to describe how much I love it. I have been really sick lately and have such a hard time concentrating on anything for more than one second but I have not been able to look away from this story, not even when I re-read it for the third time. You are an amazing writer and I have fallen in love with every charachter you have introduced. I teared up so many times and my heart began beating fast, it was really an experience.

OH MY GOD ;___________; YOU READ IT THREE TIMES WHAATDOSOIGODFSKL holy shit thank you so much, i don’t even know what to say right now lmao ;-; i’m just kinda in awe that i was able to grab your attention like that and that you enjoyed it so much and just askjdjfsd THANK YOU i can’t say anything else but just thank you, people like you make this all worth it <3

A case of the novembers is the kinda story you read and you just know its going to stick with you for awhile. Like ones day, you'll be long gone in the future, doing something totally different, older wiser, all that bullshit, and you'll just randomly remember what a bittersweet story it was.

OMFG ;___; holy heck asjdjnfkdkjs this really got me right in the heart lmao. that’s the kind of story it’s always been for me and seeing other people interpret it that way as well is just mind boggling, thank you <3

You are evil. My poor heart hurts. ;______________;

you've ruined my life

Life hack: listen to the entire Hamilton soundtrack whilst working out at the gym. By the end of it, you'll have lost half your body weight due to sweating and crying at the same time (pls help this was such a bad decision)

OMG that’s me with grimes’ art angels lmao i go hord to kill v maim and venus fly

hamilton fans also go hord i respect it. learn more about history get swole killing two birds with one stone

Okay this is so fucking random but a while ago you did a post where you talked about perfect bby gianni saying that he spent a lot of time in introspection and like Thank you 'cause now I have a word to put on this thing I do when I try to figure why I feel certain things or what my relationship with people/random shit is and why and yeah I kind of understand myself a little better now so thx a lot!!! 😘😘😘 Also, you're great.

i think i was actually talking about santi (’cause that’s where we’re at right now, in that period of introspection for him heheh) but YES omg that makes me so happy ;-; it’s a good word lmao and i do the same thing, in fact i’m always trying to figure out my relationships with everything in order to understand myself more. that’s kinda why i’m so into astrology haha. i’m glad you finally got to pin down that feeling for yourself, it’s the best when that happens <3 YOU’RE GREAT TOO 💫

NOOOOOOOO MY FAVS THIS CAN'T... LOU.... SANTI PLS... THIS IS A RIOT 😭😭

let’s start protesting santi in the streets

Hi!! Umm I'm guessing you do but just in case, did you know there was a tear accessory? I think it's an eyeliner (cause you mentioned having to draw them yourself)

yeah i do! i mentioned the ones by s-club, i’ve used those a couple times. but i like drawing them myself because i feel like it’s weird to have the same single teardrop every time one of my characters cries (and we all know they’ve been crying a lot lately lmfao) if they didn’t cry often i probably wouldn’t feel compelled to draw the tears. but i don’t mind drawing them honestly, it’s kinda fun lmao. thanks for your consideration <3

so im sitting here thinkin....... what if santi goes on this trip and coms back and lou is in a relationship!?!?!

👏santi👏get👏it👏together👏

HE’S TRYIN

i want to die

AAAH SOLE DEVELOPMENT BETWEEN CUTE DEVIL CHILD AND I ALMOST DIED TWICE TATOO MAN YES

I HAD TO READ THIS LIKE THREE TIMES TO UNDERSTAND IT LMFAOSDOJDKF BUT YES their relationship kills me the most ;__;

wait santi tried to kys :'(

WHERE U BEEN he did :{

what font do u use in your histories?

arial!

hi u have a really pretty blog and I hope you have a good day

THIS IS SO SWEET I DON’T DESERVE IT ;-; I HOPE YOU HAVE A GOOD DAY TOO HONEYBEE 🌻

nyooooooom

I WENT M.I.A FOR A LITTLE AND I COME BACK TO READ UP ON THE STORY AND HOW DARE YOU ASHDDJFKL

@teishajenaie on instagram looks like Rooney to me, idk if you'd agree but ??

i see it!! definitely in the eyes and nose. also sorry i answered this literally like 3 months later lmao

gooey by glass animals gives me santi vibes :) ive been listening to it on repeat (bc im tht bitch) and it was making me think of you and his story! c: i hope you dont mind me over here lmao anyway, im excited to see where it goes and real excited for a back story for lou!! <3 lots of love

omg haha that’s actually funny because i used it in that one scene of him tripping, although it’s like completely a gianni song to me (at least personality-wise, it’s even on his playlist on my character page) and noooo i don’t mind, i love that song and i love when people recommend me songs!! i have a whole bunch of recommendations in my inbox that i need to acknowledge omg. anyway I’M EXCITED THAT YOU’RE EXCITED, especially for lou’s story, it’s coming up reeeeeal soon <333

i feel so late to the party but i Just started reading your story like five minutes ago and im absolutely entranced by it already and i cant wait to catch up and finally understand what to heck is going on

this was sent literally forever ago when santi and molly were out there being wild in the desert lmao so i hope you caught up and everything. “entranced” omg that’s such a wonderful word i’m honored

i didnt think i could love you more but the fact that you watch arrested development makes me so happy. i cry. my boyfriend has a mr manager, bluths frozen bananas shirt thats literally my favorite thing ever.

OMGGG YES i watched it once forever ago and i need to re-watch it asap lmao. I’M PRETTY SURE I BOUGHT THAT SAME EXACT SHIRT FOR MY BROTHER FOR CHRISTMAS ONE YEAR

Just a biiig prank. Huge

this one is from so long ago i don’t remember the context but i laughed at loud when i read it. huge

i was playing with uncharted for the first time today and they said Navarro in it and i was like THATS MY BOI SANTIII

santi infiltrating everyone’s lives my bf played uncharted tho!! it looked cool. like indiana jones. i liked the marketplace part. a monkey stole his apple

Hi sunny! I really am in love with your story (even if it's tearing me apart at the moment) and just wanted to say you're cool Stay strong ma dude

HI THANK YOU <333 you’re also cool my dude and i’m sorry for tearing you apart (if it makes you feel any better this story tears me apart on a daily basis)

what packs and expansions do u have for ur game?

ummmmmm all of them except vintage glamour and fitness stuff. i wish i didn’t buy some of the stuff packs lmao but what can ya do i actually didn’t even get vampires or bowling or parenthood until like a month ago lmao i’m late to the party

Oh shit she's been dead hasn't she. Like this is all a drug or alcohol infused bender of mollys memory, she's probably never left. They're probably still at the hospital. I hope I fucking wrong but shit I also hope not. Poor santi

we’re so far past this but i just wanted to publish this anyway lmao it was a good theory! and this person was so sure of it it kinda made me wish it was true lol. sorry if that disappointed you but i’ll always remember this one in my sad sad heart 💔

how long did it take for you to make friends here? I started a simblr because I really like storytelling with my sims & I thought it'd be fun to meet people who enjoy that, too, especially since I don't have many friends irl...but I've been here for quite a few months now and it seems like no one even cares that I'm here....everyone I try to interact with pretty much ignores me after a message or two....I'm just feeling really discouraged about my presence here :/

I’M REALLY SORRY I DIDN’T ANSWER THIS SOONER ASKJDKJFSDKA (i’m sure it didn’t help the fact that you feel ignored, i really really hope you see this) but okay uhhhhhhh i only had acquaintances from 2015 up until like this year? then i started really becoming close with people. so it took a while lol, but i think everyone starts off slow because it’s mostly about the actual game we’re playing at first and then making friends just happens through that. don’t get discouraged, like i said it took a while for me. you really just need to reach out to the people you’d like to become friends with, reply to their posts, give your genuine thoughts, say something that’ll make their day...people notice that no matter what they have going on, i promise. i hope you’re still here and hanging in there. don’t get caught up in who’s talking to you or not talking to you, just do your thing, enjoy what you do, and people will notice you. <3

3. Hi so I just wanted to say that I love your story, I'm here for every update. I'm an s3 player I play s4 every once in awhile but s3 has my soul. I love Santi and I know he will be happy in the end, whether it's with Lou or not(hopefully it is tho) I only want him to be happy. I go through so many emotions in one post, like this is a tv drama and I can’t wait for the next episode. This is the end of my cut and paste. Have a nice day.❤️

HI HELLO <3 this is so sweet and i can’t believe you actually care about my story lmao thank you i’m glad you have faith in his happy ending, i don’t want anyone to think i genuinely like making my characters suffer lmao. i only do it to make the happy ending more satisfying. asjdfjksd comparing my stuff to film or tv always makes me so giddy so THANK YOU ily <333

"Suicide before you see this tear fall down my eyes" (Beyonce) reminds me of Molly's situation soooo muchhhh aaaahhhhh

OMG YES what a good connection. good song good connection yaeeahhh better call molly with the good hair

Ummmm... hello! I just read through your whole story with Santi and I'm like... holy fuck. Not only is your story wonderful, your editing is so good. I'm surprised I didn't shove my eyes up against my computer screen. Please continue making wonderful things and being great. Signing off 12:31 in the morning, I hope you have as much fun as you want to

“as much fun as you want to” omfgasdkngjd why did that make me laugh so much. don’t have too much fun, have the responsible amount of fun anyway HELLO thank you soooooO much ;-; pls don’t shove ur eyes up against the screen i’m almost positive that’s not good for them. but i appreciate this so much thank YOU for being great <3 signing off at 2:18 in the morning after ignoring this message for months now (i’m sorryyyyyyy) but um ily

HELLO??? I JUST READ A SERIOUS CASE OF NOVEMBER FOR THE FIRST TIME AND I'M LIKE CRYING???? y u do dis to me I hate you and love you at the same time

(I need to rant I'm sorry) My uncle is really positive towards the army and war and stuff like that and all day he's been going on about how it should be mandatory to serve in the military, especially for "little brat girls" like me? And it's stressing me out so much I want to cry :( The army and war is something that genuinely scares me and I don't want anything to do with it, but he's just going on and on! What should I do?

this is literally sooooooooo late and i feel so bad i’m sorry, i hope this still helps you out and i hope you see it tho okay. i’m pretty sure this was even before the trans military ban like whew idek what your uncle must think about that. tbh just ignore him, like i know it’s hurtful but like...what is his point in telling you this? i would’ve literally been like (sarcastically) “ok then sign me up” but i’m also a lil shit so that’s probably not the best thing to say. but really like the only thing he’s trying to do is feel powerful by means of expressing his militaristic (no pun intended) opinions to someone far younger than him. it’s so that he feels bigger and better than you (especially by calling you a brat). he’s a sad man and anyone who relies on the military, of all things, to shape a person probably doesn’t have a strong sense of self anyway. i love you okay, just ignore him, don’t let him stress you out <3

I'm a little high and it's late but I have a lot of courage now so I've been following you for a while and I just want to tell you how much I love your story! I have come across other places on tumblr who do this but none have captured me as this one did! You are amazing and I am in love with this story! Thanks fo being you! :)

ONMG YOU HAD TO BE HIGH TO SEND THIS LMAO that was me this weekend anyway thank you so much, it floors me every time anyone says these kinds of things to me and it never gets old ;-; you are so amazing ok <333

you can't possibly be offended by a homophobic joke in game of thrones, it's set in medieval times. they had several lgbt characters in it, it's not the show that's homophobic, it's the characters, which is accurate for that time period.

o i can and i will lmao i mean i get where you’re coming from but with that logic you could say it’s only accurate to put homophobic jokes in today’s media just because people are still homophobic in the time live in. i know it’s the characters, but you do understand that someone writes those characters, right? it’s bad writing. it’s lazy and pandering and because of that it’s offensive. idk if you know the exact dialogue i was referring to but it was so completely unnecessary lmfao. they could’ve made a million other jokes. regardless of how it offended me it was just BAD lmao

SPOILER BELOW OK DON’T SAY I DIDN’T WARN YA

@ I wanna watch GoT anon: don't. It's just so fucking bad. The definition of overhyped tbh (and btw, sunny, PLS HELP HE SCREWED HIS FUCKING AUNT WTH)

LMAO SOMEONE ACTUALLY AGREES WITH ME? wow bless u. it is definitely overhyped, like it was good at first but it’s been riding that hype through these past couple of seasons to disguise the bad writing. i understand being entertained by it, but i’m always surprised when people think it’s actually well written at this point...it’s so cringey and now thanks to the season finale this fanbase will be justifying incest. great!

OK MOVE ALONG NOW

#AND I'LL BE ANSWERING THE CHARACTER ASKS TOMORROW (well today but whatev)#anonymous #nonsims #saviorhide #sunny answers

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dumplingequivalent · 8 years ago

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I see literally anthing political and i square my shoulders and curl in on myself and i physically cannot handle the world i’m in, and i know i should be doing literally anything against it but my dude i can barely clean my room how can i get involved in a political revolution

People irl accuse me of trying to “avoid the truth” and say shit like I baby myself and I live ignorantly because i dont want to watch things that make me sad or cry or anxious and i just ???? at them because 1) im a serious open book. I absorb everything, like dies to a wet white shirt, i’m near transparent and the smallest of inks effect me deeply. I’ll be depressed for a week from one movie. I know this about myself, and jesus im just trying to live here. And 2) boi idk what life you’re looking at but if I’m ever a star in my own life, it’s a tragedy and I’m far from any resolutions. I need anime to artificially inflate my life with some hope and joy so i’m not a walking pile of bitter misery

And none of this stops the guilt that comes from “you should have said something/reblogged that/shared this/tried to draw any attention to very worthy very important causes” but i just cannot think about these things my guy i am WEAK i’ll scream it forever to be free of the weight of my sins I AM WEAK AND I CANT HANDLE IT I AM SORRY I WILL FOREVER LET EVERYONE DOWN

#personal #im bitching #readmore

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mgaines13-blog · 8 years ago

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Anxiety

I’m going to get really real and really vulnerable with you guys quick. Below are SIXTY SEVEN html written links completely about anxiety. Not just anxiety in general, but MY anxiety.. I understand that there is a lot happening, but definitely check out the ones that strike you. Lots of pictures, videos, gifs, articles, and art. Learn something (:

1. <a href=“https://amysmartgirls.com/heres-what-anxiety-feels-like-when-you-have-no-idea-what-anxiety-is-53f99edca575#.m3eagv9oo”>Part One: How it Feels, Everyday</a> 2. <a href=“https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anxiety”>Anxious</a> 3. <a href=“https://www.browndailyherald.com/wp-content/uploads/2014/03/photo-1-copy.jpg”>Breathless</a> 4. <a href=“https://youtu.be/4bnjYflhPj4”>Cold</a> 5. <a href=“https://youtu.be/j763AwxZ3x8”>Racing Heart</a> 6. <a href=“https://mobile.twitter.com/vibethriller/status/554493287289978880”>Panic</a> 7. <a href=“http://weheartit.com/entry/122933752”>Fear</a> 8. <a href=“http://beethy.deviantart.com/art/anxiety-314402192”>Numb</a> 9. <a href=“http://static.boredpanda.com/blog/wp-content/uploads/2017/01/Im-drawing-about-anxiety-and-depression-588efc0ecd905__700.jpg”>Exhausted</a> 10. <a href=“http://m.imgur.com/gallery/5D4lR”>Burdened</a> 11. <a href=“http://www.calmclinic.com/anxiety/signs/aches-and-pains”>Pain</a> 12. <a href=“http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/anxiety-schmanxiety/2013/03/what-to-do-when-you-are-lonely/”>Lonely</a> 13. <a href=“https://youtu.be/xv_79-p6SPM”>On Edge</a> 14. <a href=“https://youtu.be/masI_OsKtX0”>Worried</a> 15. <a href=“http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2015/05/18/anxiety-photos-katie-crawford_n_7292548.html?slideshow=true#gallery/426448/0”>Choked</a> 16. <a href=“http://www.drshel.com/blog/anxiety-depression/could-your-anxiety-be-hormonal/”>Hormonal</a> 17. <a href=“http://www.huffingtonpost.com/entry/high-functioning-anxiety_us_57f8042ce4b0e655eab41cdb”>Stupid</a> 18. <a href=“https://youtu.be/_X8sz_wgrSc”>Helpless</a> 19. <a href=“http://images.hellogiggles.com/uploads/2015/01/30/shutterstock_78037072.jpg”>Medicated</a> 20. <a href=“http://www.maritalhealing.com/images/sadnessanger.gif”>Angry</a> 21. <a href=“https://s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com/736x/18/a9/7f/18a97f43c8cda0b1109e2270c7887a6d.jpg”>Crazy</a> 22. <a href=“https://s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com/736x/5b/e1/c9/5be1c9f16aec90d5771d1274394a20d2.jpg”>Unloved<a/> 23. <a href=“http://www.yourtango.com/2016295625/what-like-have-anxiety-depression-at-same-time”>Overwhelmed</a> 24. <a href=“https://s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com/736x/c3/b9/ed/c3b9eda76aeba1171fafd4b498dbc135.jpg”>Trapped<a/>

25. <a href=“https://youtu.be/YHfVIzrwAZU”>Part Two: What Brings it On?<a/> 26. <a href=“https://s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com/736x/25/58/50/2558502acc24c8e34408cf17a7c96a12.jpg”>Myself<a/> 27. <a href=“https://cdn-webimages.wimages.net/0515e074fe89962493020d80ee2995e3e1d282-wm.jpg?v=3”>Loss of Control<a/> 28. <a href=“http://www.anxietyguru.net/the-top-100-things-you-should-know-about-anxiety-disorders/”>Anything<a/> 29. <a href=“http://www.karenandrews.com.au/2014/04/30/what-anxiety-feels-like/”>Everything<a/> 30. <a href=“https://youtu.be/wzjWIxXBs_s”>Nothing<a/> 31. <a href=“http://sobadsogood.com/2016/03/03/these-photos-near-disaster-make-you-feel-weirdly-edge/”>You<a/> 32. <a href=“https://s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com/736x/af/8e/0a/af8e0af9989b379989b5e068cd783479.jpg”>That Leaf Over There</a> 33. <a href=“http://ask.metafilter.com/265512/Family-causes-anxiety-and-I-cant-visit-them”>Family<a/> 34. <a href=“http://static.boredpanda.com/blog/wp-content/uploads/2015/09/anxiety-depression-comics-nick-seluk-sarah-flanigan-awkward-yeti-23.jpg”>Friends<a/> 35. <a href=“http://www.life-works.org/wp-content/uploads/2015/10/stress-anxiety-crowds-mindfulness-coping-relief.jpg”>Crowds</a> 36. <a href=“https://s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com/736x/50/06/80/500680ab20c27eaf600465fa1124ae87.jpg”>Work</a> 37. <a href=“https://s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com/600x315/d1/dc/22/d1dc2252b94bfd278d44ee2c78ac96c3.jpg”>Fear</a> 38. <a href=“https://s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com/originals/3a/4d/67/3a4d67083149e3507ed0223b3cd6049f.jpg”>School</a> 39. <a href=“https://s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com/736x/1b/ed/78/1bed781c9f36fccfe13329cdf6f1de35.jpg”>Others Not Understanding</a> 40. <a href=“ http://static.boredpanda.com/blog/wp-content/uploads/2017/01/Im-drawing-about-anxiety-and-depression-588b4400ba1b3__700.jpg”>Uncertainty</a> 41. <a href=“https://www.thevisualmd.com/read_videoguide/?idu=1083621497”>Science</a> 42. <a href=“http://scontent.cdninstagram.com/t51.2885-15/s480x480/e15/11427434_847568395337748_169730872_n.jpg?ig_cache_key=MTAxMTY3MzIzNjEyNzIxMTE5Mw%3D%3D.2”>Part Three: What Helps</a> 43. <a href=“http://3.bp.blogspot.com/-miq_G5jvoiU/Vmf7AR6kPcI/AAAAAAAAHcU/NoyuDree2Kc/s640/download.png”>Moments of Empowerment</a> 44. <a href=“https://s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com/564x/a5/8f/9c/a58f9c678161386bc102eb09f619040e.jpg”>Warm Hugs</a> 45. <a href=“https://lh4.ggpht.com/-vuOtzl6jGN4/VzSWLZ430HI/AAAAAAAVo_E/NXqqMSNX3DA/w1000-h800/image”>Positivity</a> 46. <a href=“https://cdn.meme.am/cache/instances/folder840/31293840.jpg”>Smiling</a> 47. <a href=“http://visual.ly/10-most-famous-art-masterpieces”>Art IRL, but I guess this will have to do</a> 48. <a href=“https://youtu.be/tnO1fnuvTNI”>Puns</a> 49. <a href=“https://youtu.be/3lvNGhBXTU0”>Movies</a> 50. <a href=“https://youtu.be/_X8sz_wgrSc”>Music</a> 51. <a href=“http://68.media.tumblr.com/fe1d66b6408e234b01248090a2b2a2d5/tumblr_naq2cn2vwe1ttaez5o1_1280.png”>Crying</a> 52. <a href=“http://a.fod4.com/images/GifGuide/dancing/sunny3.gif”>Dancing</a> 53. <a href=“https://youtu.be/Uow_peCY2yE”>Painting</a> 54. <a href=“http://prodimage.images-bn.com/pimages/9780061119064_p1_v1_s192x300.jpg”>Reading</a> 55. <a href=“https://www.buzzfeed.com/expresident/the-cutest-things-that-ever-happened?utm_term=.hkKaPYQJo#.dc9xlD7dk”>Cute Things</a> 56. <a href=“https://s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com/236x/26/b9/42/26b942bdecec75c96f52974ddd4b447f.jpg”>Sweaters</a> 57. <a href=“https://youtu.be/Rn0xXo1gwGY”>Musicals</a> 58. <a href=“http://images.media-allrecipes.com/images/61655.jpg”>Food</a> 59. <a href=“http://www.azquotes.com/picture-quotes/quote-it-is-only-too-true-that-a-lot-of-artists-are-mentally-ill-it-s-a-life-which-to-put-vincent-van-gogh-61-50-90.jpg”>Knowing I’m not the Only One</a> 60. <a href=“https://youtu.be/y3JOQqoCNjc”>Distractions</a> 61. <a href=“http://previews.123rf.com/images/portocala/portocala1607/portocala160700022/60327484-Beautiful-illustration-with-message-Keep-calm-and-pamper-yourself-vector-format-Stock-Vector.jpg”>Pampering Myself</a> 62. <a href=“http://i.dailymail.co.uk/i/pix/2010/03/07/article-1256219-08966FCB000005DC-920_468x286.jpg”>Sleeping</a> 63. <a href=“http://i.dailymail.co.uk/i/pix/2016/04/17/16/334338C300000578-3544527-Charlene_Bacchioni_50_from_Pretoria_South_Africa_had_no_idea_tha-a-154_1460907323354.jpg”>Giraffes</a> 64. <a href=“https://s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com/736x/ab/fe/5e/abfe5e6542f4c76624c0fc54d2b18efd.jpg”>Coffee> 65.

66. Does Anxiety Affect You? 67. Please Help Those with Anxiety

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